Don´t take it too serious.
Don´t take everything too serious, including yourself.

If it´s a desease, it can be healed:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mania
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder


Important: Nothing is wrong with you!
(Even if you can´t understand or describe your feelings)

If you´re feeling really bad, you should see a therapist which you trust. You´ll notice very quickly if you talk the same language.

If not, better search for another therapist.