Realistically probably wish i had never been born after looking around the world, but now i am here, survival is the thing.

I could never succeed to kill myself really since i left my body once and know that the essence of me does not die. I know those who has not had any such experience may think different.

I don't think the world will come to an end in my physical lifetime so i have no fear of "spending eternity in the vacuum of space".

Anyway energy exists in space so why not i too when i shake off this physical vessel, for i am but energy trapped in a physical vessel.