if you particulary ask...
you posted several times the same style of pic and sorry, you must be a very pissed of person ?!?
Why donīt you give yourself a change. Leave gamestudio for a while, get a chick, fuck, make parties, mayby change to not so depressive gothic sound.... go to spain, dance with some hot girls,..feel the pulse of cool life?? I know, you have no parents, and what the fuck...
I really wish you luck, man.